Merry May

Hello stars!

Yes, it's May. :D

And it's Labour Day. ;)

I just wanna say Merry May and Happy Labour Day. There are *so many things to come. Keep your head up, smile, and be positive. I can't wait to enjoy "My May"! I hope y'all will too. May God bless y'all. :)
*Mother's Day-12/May, National Teacher's Day-7/May, Teacher's Day(Malaysia)-16/May, my dad and babybrother's birthday, etc...... I guess ;)

xoxo

Spontaneous Cover.

Hello pumpkins! :D

For HasNgasri's readers who don't know, I do *post my cover/sing at Youtube. For the ones who knows, I recently deleted some of my videos because I felt awful! Anyway, this cover is pure spontaneous. I think you can notice it from my voice! Hahaa. Enjoy babies!
*search : Has Ngasri.

xoxo

Quick Review : Lippie.

Hello daisies! Lips lips lips. Say 'NO' to dry/chapped lips!
Today I'll be doing a quick review on EOS Lip Balm and NYX IndieFlick Lipstick.

Few days back, my sister bought me a NYX Matte Lipstick. Im sooooo in love with the colour! It's kinda red and orange, mix together. For my *skin tone, sometimes it can appear as bright orange and sometimes bright red. The texture is soft, and you CAN EASILY go wrong with it because the colour is thick and it's a matte lipstick. But seriously, it lasts longer than any lipstick I've tried. Here are some of the pictures of the lipstick ;
*brown skin tone

Also available in these shades!

Currently, I'd bought myself a lip balm. It's EOS lip balm. I bought it through online/delivery because its not available in Malaysia yet. I'm hoping EOS will be in Malaysia soon! The lip balm is soft and *smells really good! The shape is so cute! Its small and round. Here are the pictures ;
*mine is honeysuckle honeydew

So that's my review about the Lippie. ;)  I hope ya'll love/enjoy it because I'm loving it! You can check out my *KEEK, I did a quick video about this!
*hasngasri
You're welcome! ;)

xoxo

Fashion VS Comfort.

Hello peeps! I hope ya'll doing fine. ;)
Yes, yes, today we're going to talk about FASHION. (YAY :D)

As we all know, when it comes to fashion everyone will think about *trends, seasons, etc. But, I always have my own opinion.
*Bohemian, Rock, Colour-Blocking, Hipster, etc.

To me, it's never wrong to follow a trend. Everyone loves fashion, right?! Boys, girls, EVERYONE! Even, I do.  Frankly speaking, I'm not like my gorgeous sisters who always 'Up-For-Fashion' but I have to admit fashion sometimes can be an obsession!

My fashion statement is comfort. I'll wear anything that's comfy even if it's not in the trending list of fashion.

Wait!! Don't get me wrong. Eventhough, I'm into fashion, being comfortable in what I'm wearing is on top of my list of being a fashionable. If we go back to the "old days", there were *"craycray" outfits/costumes that makes you go "That person must be so ashamed if he/she saw him/herself wearing that now" or " How can people wear/created those". Well, that's all fashion!
*crazy

Even for now, we still have the "crazy fashion" but it has been "upgraded". Lets take Lady Gaga for example, Wrap-Me-Meat, Wrap-My-Face.......etc.

OR Nicki Minaj

DOES THAT LOOKS COMFY TO YOU? NO! But that's fashion, babies. Well, not in particular actually. :P

Obviously for me, I'll never get caught dead or alive wearing that. Eventhough I love fashion so much, I would never 'DIE' for fashion. Being comfortable wins for me. Weee! My 'Never-Gets-Old' outfit is a pair of white T's, black/dark denim, boots,high-heels,snickers or sandals.  Absolutely simple yet fashionable as I always say. Plus, it boosts my confidence level.

To those who would die for fashion, you have my respect. To those who love comfort, HI-5! Overall, this is never meant to hurt anyone's feelings emotionally or mentally. If I do, I apologize and, my grammar too though!

xoxo

What's Your Self Esteem?

HELLO MARSHMALLOWS!
Get yourself checked yet? If you don't, please do read this!
Hahaa. :D

As we all know, 'Self Esteem' is important for everyone. However, today I'll be focusing on the "teen's self esteem". Mostly, teenagers have difficulties being confident. It's also means that the teenagers are having 'low self esteem'. This problem can lead to another problems such as isolation, depression, or SUICIDAL!
Its never too late to take a step ahead and be confident. So, here's a short story that I would like to share.

Frankly speaking, I do have the same "difficulty" when I was a teen ( STILL IS, 20 THIS YEAR :D). I get shy so easily and I would be stiff like a stick because people used to make fun of me based on how I look. I was 12, brown-Malay girl, tall, big bone structured. Yes, I was a bit different from others and ofcourse they called me names*. Those words makes me feel so small and I feel like I don't belong here.

*Black/hitam, Indian-looking, fat, kampung's name, bla bla bla~

When I went into high school, a nightmare became R.E.A.L.I.T.Y.. What I mean by that is,  it's worse! A lot of people were talking bad behind my back and created stupid rumours. At one point, it became wild. People were saying I'm *"preggos" and teachers started giving me cold shoulder and wicked stares. Horribly insane!

*pregnant

That was the highlight of my life. (Taadaa) I fought! I stand up for myself. I don't even give sh-t about what they have to say. To me, they're all dead and trying to find the light from hell. Hahaa (EVIL LAUGH). Singing and writing lyrics has always been a cure and a sweet escape for me whenever people gets on my nerves.

My "self esteem" story has been written and obviously shared. And I'm proud to say, it's 100% from me. How about you? Whatever may comes in the future, good or bad, make sure it's your story and based on you, not them. Always believe in yourself and there are people who believes in you too. Because I believe in myself and yes, I'm proud to say I found that person. (EHEM EHEM)

Sometimes, people who make fun of others are the ones who's lacking of confidence , the most. Its okay to be fat, tall, short, black, weirdo, have big boobs and everything. It's just high school, after all. It will be over. What's important is now and how you choose to handle it.

Last but not least, who knew this brown/black lady get to *model with DJ Nas-T. It was phenomenal and a big deal for me. There's some *successful people now who make a big difference before they got "BIG". Everybody's different but nobody's perfect. Embrace yourself.

*freelance model
* Kimora Lee Simmons, Eminem, Dayang Nurfaizah, Christina Aguilera, Taylor Swift, Demi Lovato, Mila Kunis, etc.

xoxo

I apologize if anyone feels I'm full of myself.
Its a simple/quick example. (GET OVER YOURSELF :P)
And for the Grammar too!!

Its Ok, If It's Your Rights.

HELLO FOLKS! :D

I have an interesting stuff to tell you guys. Try to take a moment, read carefully and think broadly. (not just from one perspective)

This morning, I get to see a movie called The Whistleblower. Frankly speaking, it scares the shit outta me but at the same time it inspires me in someway. *The story was based on Katheryn's experience (a policewoman) who volunteered in being one of the peacekeeper in Bosnia.

Whats interesting was, mostly the "peacekeepers" wasn't peacekeepers. They didn't take any actions in protecting women's right. Yes, it wasn't their "expertise" but they should have taken some action. Shockingly, a few of them were involved in kidnapping and smuggling *girls from all around the world . All the girls will actually work as a "waitress" and "serve" men. Plus, there are some of the girls were being tortured and killed. It was insanely cruel. The fact that, it involves few soldiers/peacekeepers/"big big" people/etc from all around the world, really makes me mad.

This case is deadly serious. It could happen to anyone. No doubt! Your family, friends, or you. The kidnapping and smuggling made billions. It's crazy.

So, I  just wanna take a moment and say, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE take a good care of yourself, your family and your friends. Beware of your surroundings and what you put yourself into. Last but not least, do not be afraid to lodge a report if there's anything happen to you especially girls/ladies/women. You have every rights to do so. I always had your back ladies!

I apologize if this affects anyone mentally or emotionally in particular. This is just a story to tell everyone to beware and they have every rights if anything happen.

xoxo

*not sure if it's a true story.
*not sure about the age.

Life Is........

Well, to be honest that tittle kinda freaks me out. Haha.
But actually, life is unexpectedly beautiful. You just never know because you're too busy "exploring" it.
Yes, there's highs and lows but that's what make it special.
To make it more sense, I'm gonna share with you my dirty little secret.

Once upon a time... Haha.. Just kidding!

For the past 2 years, I've been killing myself with exam. It's not a normal exam. It's STPM. Its stands for Sijil Tinggi Pengajian Malaysia. It has its own rating for being one of the toughest exams in the WORLD! I took the exam because of my parents. To them, it was a huge "platform" for me and my future. I know right-cliche!
However, I'm their daughter and I respect their opinion. And yeah, their wish came true. BRAVO!!

On the other hand, my passion was singing (STILL IS). I pour my heart and soul when it comes to singing. I write my own lyrics but I never created a song because I don't play *instruments.  It wasn't something that people proud of or make them go --> "Wow, she's great!' "
* I do play drum and piano but I'm not that pro.

So when things changed, I was devastated! It was hurtful. It hurts more than a relationship break ups. I get to know few amazing people but its still 'High School'. you never have "exception" when you're in high school. I do get bullied, ostracized,etc.

It felt exactly the same when I was in Form 1-5 and I have to say, I'm sick of playing "stupid games". And that's when I decided to rebel around. I started skipping school, classes, wasting money, making excuses for EVERYTHING. It was pathetic!

I blamed my parents if anyone asked me why am I not taking this seriously. I didn't even take a second to think, I just go and and blamed them all the way. Even though, it felt so so good when my friends can relate to that, that awesomeness that I felt was just temporary. I always wonder why that in the end of the day, it hurts me like crazy.

I tried my best to acknowledge my pain so I decided to go to school counseling. But it didnt work out either. My teachers started to sign me up for any motivation talk that the school held but still that "rebel" was still there. Sometimes I can just sit somewhere alone and people thought I'm being "weird" when actually I'm just trying to figured it out.

As time slowly swept away, I realized that I was near to STPM. So ofcourse, my class 6PUM held a small farewell party to thanks our teachers. At that moment, I went blank/empty, anything you describe a feeling of not feeling anything at all.
The party went awesome but I didn't enjoy it.

I wasn't getting bullied anymore. The teachers wasn't giving me any attention/advices anymore. Just like I wanted  it to be. Just free.

So, STPM came and walk by. I did my best.

When the results was out, I wasn't shocked I scored as what I deserved. I get what I deserved. It will be a total lie if I said I was happy. Because I wasn't.

I give myself a moment to think. This was never my parent's  fault. It was mine. I was given a chance to give a shot but I was just too ego/arrogant to care. I thought I had everything in my hand. I thought this world would go the way I wanted. I thought when I "fail", my parents realized that it's their fault. Well, you know what guys...... It didn't. It was mine and only me to blamed.

I want to thank my lovely parents, my bubbly classmates, my wonderful teachers and my beautiful school.

The End. Haha. So yeah, that's My Story. My Confessions. My Highs & Lows.

Life is a massive,blank canvas, you are the brush, your highs and lows are the colours. It's unlimited. It's a mystery waiting to be revealed.  You can paint it anyway. Its your life and it's up to you. In life,  you'll always be given a chance/choice to do something great. But it wont be great, if you choose not to.

Even though, I kinda "kantoi" in my STPM. Im thankful for all the lessons. And it taught me to be grateful for every opportunity that might come and be prepared for a crazy ride!

Remember peeps, everything that happens has its own reasons. You just have to be brave enough to see it. Oh yes, life is beautiful ;)

xoxo

 *I apologise for any grammar mistakes. :P

Let's "Keek" Ass

So, yes I do have Keek now. It's kinda addictive to be honest.
To me, its great and you just have to talk about something. You have to have tons of ideas to talk about/share. Fun ideas, advices, etc.
Well, Im going to end "the speech" and continue it on Keek y'all!
For anyone who do have Keek, *follow me.
For those who didnt, what are you waiting for!
xoxo (*hasngasri)